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I used a mindfulness meditation tool recently to get me through some stress. I woke up at about 3 am unable to sleep, digesting events in life in a whirling swarm of emotions. I decided to name each emotion in a universal way as it came up. So it was with curious and open mind, non-judging, “oh, irritation”, “ok now, that is sadness”, “there is anger”, “oh, now hope”. And in between would come the story line which I would drop and look at the emotion, name it, the next storyline would immediately arise an emotion would become apparent, and on and on like that. And I became very curious about the fact that there were so many coming so fast and that they were so different. Looking at them consciously I had living testimony to the fact of their impermanence which took all the weight off of them. Ultimately the whole experience pretty quickly vanished and I fell back into a deep sleep until morning. I was so glad to have had the training, I can’t tell you.
The inspiration to find the help inside myself came because in the week before I had missed a lot of sleep from worrying about a house purchase until I realized, my own personal happiness and the happiness of those around me are far more important than any four walls. So I just kept repeating that and trying to recall that idea whenever I got stressed out and focusing on what is lost when sleep doesn’t happen. From that place I was more motivated to find a strategy.